it's not good
I’ve got to be totally honest here, mostly with myself. I have been trying to fool myself that my foot was getting better, or at the very least not getting any worse. It is NOT. Friday’s walk was excruciating. Today, I can barely hobble between the computer and the kitchen for a cup of tea. And tomorrow I’m supposed to get in a 6 miler.
That’s not going to happen.
I’m going to call up Monday and make an appointment with our GP, whom I’ll need to see first to get a referral to a podiatrist. I don’t think I want to hear what they’ll have to say, because I’m pretty sure it’s going to dash my hopes of completing this marathon in June.
Sigh…. truly, I’m nearly crying right now. I’ve decided to take at least a week, more likely two, off from training, while I wait on what the docs have to say. I’m an old hand at knee/foot problems, though. My verdict: plantar fasciitis AND tendonitis. Unless it’s some kind of stress fracture.
I HATE this. I don’t want to quit. This is SO important to me! But so is being able to walk normally at the ripe old age of 38, which I’ll be turning in June. Also, it makes me feel like a failure. My body is designed to do this. Walking is supposed to be so good for you, and so easy on your body. And I can’t even get that right.
Also, I’m terrified that I’m going to start gaining back the weight I’ve worked so hard to lose.
Yet another sigh…. just bitching, I guess. I’m feeling low, I’m scared, and I’m very unhappy. Because I was really enjoying this. Enjoying being outside, by myself, doing something good for myself. Enjoying losing. Between the rounds of doctor trips in my near future, I guess I’m going to hit the pool. I used to really enjoy swimming, so maybe that’s a good thing. Although I’m sure that if there’s a way to injure yourself swimming, I’ll figure it out.
Even if I get the all clear to resume training after the pain goes away, I’m not sure where that puts me with my training plan. Next weekend is supposed to be ten miles, and I’m pretty sure I’ll have to start building a base all over again.
It’s not good.